The other night I had the most amazing opportunity and blessing to sit with my sisterhood again..my tribe of warriors for God..all of us in a living room sharing our week and begin a study on 2 Timothy. The entire time, everything I begged God to show me He did. I ended up (as usual) sobbing in awe of His grace.
I cannot do the things He has called me too...
But He can do them through me.
He has birthed such a burning desire in my heart for the nations.. There is something so massive burning in my soul that cannot be extinguished. It is so strong it almost daily drives me to tears.
It has felt like I have been held in God's arms, waste deep in the water. The waves no longer hitting me in the face but hitting Him and He does not move or get tossed.
He picks me up under the armpits and says "ready?"
I am shoved into the air, I take a deep breath.
Then into the deep, the plunge.
Right back where I was before I felt washed up onto the rocks feeling defeated and broken.
He does not waste time getting traction. Those waves I was swallowing the other day, they feel gone. I will take this break whether it be a day, a week or hour.
Our God is a God of SO MUCH GRACE
Our God is a God of SO MUCH MERCY
I wish I could impart to those I encounter this fire I have bubbling inside right now to fulfill all that everyone is ever called too.
Even when we are not of sound mind..the Lord is patient... He has seen the beginning from the end... He knows.. He weeps with us.. He knows this world is broken. He encourages us and He is ready to hold us up high and throw us right back in where we left off at His perfect moment
"As for you, always be sober-minded, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, fulfil your ministry." 2 Timothy 4:5
Fight the good fight, finish the race, keep the faith.